I miss you.....everyday.

"one thing that turns the world from a lonely place to a beautiful place is love, love gives us hope." I'll love you forever and forever you will be mine. I can't believe it has been 5 years. Over the past 5 years so much has changed. One thing that has not, is the hole in my heart. Loss creates a hole that never goes away. I replay the moments over and over again and there are still days I wake up feeling like something is missing. The pain doesn't stop me from moving forward, but it is always there. A dull aching painful hole. But, as I have said before the pain reminds me it was real. Happy Birthday. I miss you....everyday.

Ready or not here he comes.....Pre-K

The last time I posted on this site it had been 8 months and now it has been 9. I promise I will be better about posting. I know there are many people who enjoy reading about Jackson and my adventures. The summer flew by...Jackson started Pre-K this week!! He took swim lessons and became a wonderful swimmer. It is amazing to watch him jump in the pool and swim to the edge. After swim lessons he decided he wanted to play T-ball, so we started that! He has been busy being a kid and I have been busy working and trying to be a good mom. We are excited to start the school year and plan our next vacation. We will be going to Hawaii for Fall break:)I will keep you posted on our trip! Here is a picture of Jax and I at his school.

After all that we've been through, I know we're cool......

WOW! Has it really been 8 months since the last post? What can I say, life happens. Jax and I have been busy. Long story short we traded the cold weather for some sunshine and career advancement. It has been amazing. Jax started preschool and he loves it. He continues to impress me everyday with his knowledge. He is so smart and I often wonder where he got it from! He is barely 3 and last week he started reading 2-3 word sentences. I can honestly say I never read at 3. I can barely read now. ;)

Here are some pictures from when we went to the football game and train park. The best part about being in a new place? Visitors coming to see us and there is always something fun to do!

Who hears this song 3 times in one day......

Juliet, the dice was loaded from the start
And I bet when you exploded into my heart
And I forget I forget the movie song.
When you gonna realize it was just that the time was wrong, Juliet?

Come up on different streets, they're both the streets of shame.
Both dirty, both mean, yes, in the dream it was just the same
And I dreamed your dream for you and now your dream is real.
How can you look at me as if I was just another one of your deals?

When you can fall for chains of silver,
You can fall for chains of gold,
You can fall for pretty strangers
And the promises they hold.
You promised me everything, you promised me thick and thin, yeah!
Now you just say, "Oh Romeo? Yeah, you know I used to have a scene with him".

Juliet, when we made love, you used to cry.
You said, "I love you like the stars above, I'll love you 'til I die".
There's a place for us, you know the movie song.
When you gonna realize it was just that the time was wrong, Juliet?
I can't do the talk, like the talk on TV
And I can't do a love song, like the way it's meant to be.
I can't do everything, but I'll do anything for you.
I can't do anything, 'cept be in love with you!
And all I do is miss you and the way we used to be.
All I do is keep the beat... and bad company.
Now all I do is kiss you through the bars of a rhyme,
Juliet, I'd do the stars with you any time!


Three times in one day? Happy Birthday to me! :)

Merry Christmas!

Monthly Update for the Weisphal household

Christmas was EPIC! Jackson was spoiled as usual AND It was baby Josephine's first Christmas.(I'm so proud to be an auntie to a beautiful baby girl)

Other Exciting News-

I closed on my first(hopefully not last) business December 31st! It took three months of negotiation but I brought in 2011 as a business owner. :)

Jackson had his Interview and developmental evaluation for the private preschool today. Hopefully he is accepted. There are 60 kids and 10 spots. I guess we will see.....I think he is incredibly smart but I'm sure every mom feels that way.
That is it for now. More pictures to come....

I will never let go of you

"I don't know you
But I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me
And always fool me
And I can't react
And games that never amount
To more than they're meant
Will play themselves out

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You made it now

Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can't go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I'm painted black
You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It's time that you won

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You've made it now
Falling slowly sing your melody
I'll sing it loud
You've been dealt the hard hand"

I can't express the pain I feel on this day every year. The time goes by and the pain remains. Jackson and I are getting bundled up to go to the exact place where we sit and remember....."It is like a huge hole has been punched through my chest, but in a way I'm glad. The pain is the only reminder he was real"

Please hold your baby today, love them, kiss them, hug them and never let go.

I love you

"My momma told me don't lose you
'Cause the best luck I had was you
And I know one thing that I love you"





"I've been a lot of places all around the way
I've seen a lot of joy, and I've seen a lot of pain
Seems like everywhere I go The more I see, the less I know but I know one thing I love you. I love you, I love you, I love you...."